Monday, 28 November 2011

kadang - kadang hidup kita tinggi sampai puncak, dan bila-bila je boley jatuh

this is short n3 and totally my heart said.

bila sedih mest teringat email pasword then click new entry, mungkin blog ni tempat untuk orang yang bersedih ? dah tiga, empat hari da cik hati menyakiti tuan dia ;( Ya Allah, please give me the strength to endure everything. I’m sorry that “upset” and “disappointed” seem to be the initial emotions that I feel whenever I hear what I think is bad news. tak rasa pun its berita yang sangat buruk tapi tak boley menerima hakikat, Today has been just that a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. bangun tidur rasa macam ta nak bangun, amik masa setengah jam untuk stabil kan mood, I feel like I'm failing. I really do try to give my best everyday to all situations but I totally fall short. kenapa macam ni ? penat ...

i feel that ia am very weak, even though i dont show any sings of failing apart, tak da siapa-siapa pun perasan even teman sebilik * berpura -pura erm ya allah give me a sign a form of guidance for i am not that strong, give me strength to overcome what i am facing right now because only you are the only one who know the true nature of my problem. ya allah you are the only one i would always turn to T__T

Please be strong.
Go back to your creator..
Keep making doa.
Ask help from HIM..
Allah is never far from us..

Sunday, 13 November 2011

ini la namanya cinta jarak jauh.

My first “love”, had been in the year of middle school. Had I known that I loved from the start?I had been studying what love really meant but lately

is the word. sigh :(

i have been very emotional lately, taken it out on him. he knows im not happy. ive lost my cool, been emotional. still love him, he loves me. same old story. balls in his court. doubt anything will happen, not sure what to do short of breaking up with him. he knows its on my mind. we have talked about it before and tried to break up before. but always too much love there so we stay together. da banyak kali da.. penatnya ...

i know he loves me, but not enough to do the things so that we can be happy, never mind that its actually in his best interests to do so, and if things dont change, he will one day regret his decisions now. not sure how much of this i can bare. all i want to do is be happy and all i am is unhappy. apa- apa pun boley jadi kan , tu la namanya takdir, kalau ada jodoh tak kemana (:

If you really love someone, then distance matters only to the mind, not to the heart. i love you my 1st lov3 and that what i said i really meant it ;) .

its just animate not something real ..

I’m sure there are millions of other things that have been missing, because love is always a mystery . Love is gods gift, and we shouldn't uncover its mystery as for we will be discovering something fate .

this is short entry. aku redha (: