Ini kisah dua minggu dulu-dulu, terkilan sebab I've been studying business maths for the past 5 hours and I feel like it didn't get any of this shit in my head. I hate pulling an all nigher but it seems like tonight is the tonight. I wish i was a super genius. with just one look at the notes all the formulas will is in my mind butttt nooooo I have to reread 500000 more times before I actually get one thing down. God lets hope I don't fall asleep in finals tomorrow. past its past, tapi tetap teringat-ingat. ;(
And for several times and Again, tell to my love blog my heart said.
I don't know how should I start. What should I write. Everything was mixed up.Sad, disappointed, that's what I feel. I just want to cry. Because that's the only way I can do it right now. terasa lemahnya aku sebagai perempuan) I don't have any strength to overcome this feeling. I feel very down and giving up. Yurp rasa bersalah sebab ponteng ke class untuk kesekian kalinya,tak ada siapa yang menghalang, emak hanya berharap yang aku tau perkara tu betul atau tidak. thanks mother. T_T Maybe its call "kawan" did know what was happened to me. I know, some would say it just a small thing and it was me that make it looks complicated to solve. But I don't care what others want to say, because it is my feeling and it was what I have dream for a long time. korang apa tau?
I feel so overwhelmed, gonna fail so badly. I haven't studied since the beginning of the holidays and i should this is my only chance i can catch up otherwise im fuke-d. How can i motivate myself to study for the next one month, sekarang aku amat memerlukan sesuatu yang boleh memotivasikan diri, jauhkan aku dari kawan-kawan yang cuba menjatuhkan semangat yang sudah jatuh. Ya Allah, it seems that my life is jumbling up and down lately, and in some point of time, I feel like running away to some deserted place and start anew. I really hope that you'll give me guidance and patience in living my life,so that I didn't live in the life where your blessing wont be given..
Ya Allah, thanks for giving me a very understanding and loving family, they were the greatest thing that I had in the world, my parents,my siblings,and my closest friends, they were the strength for me to keep on living, and more importantly, without your love, I'm just a useless human. i admit it.
Ya Allah,i really need you. do give me the strength to study hard in my studies, to get good result in my examination, to get rid off my bad manners, to set up good examples in front of my siblings, to become a good daughter, to become a really understanding and great friend and to become a true muslim.
you are the only one that really understands me. T__T